still holding on 🐙 [ ramblings #3]

hello everyone!
i thought i needed to update again about how im doing in form 6 after 2 months since the one month holiday. although nothing special has happened? i just thought i needed to keep a track of how im doing these past few months in this blog.

after the one month holiday,the next month we had our first trials which i totally flunked. i do study and remember quite a few things but still,i still can't get familiar towards some questions and how to answer. im very dissappointed but it'll just encourage me to do EVEN better and aim higher for my first semester. because if i would to pass my trials with good results, i might take it a little too easy because i'm a person who gets easily overwhelmed over good results.

im going to have my one week holiday after this which totally means i have to buck up all of the things that i have to study. to be honest,i havent been studying besides doing homework (which has very little amount) and i find myself procrastinating a lot after the trials. maybe its just my brain has totally shut down after the trials. but still,i really have to go all out during the holiday after completing the homeworks i've been given in a span of maybe 3 or 2 days and have one week of my holiday by studying and do some revisions.

i really hate the fact that i have so much time but i dont spend it by endlessly studying,it bothers me so much eversince i had my SPM. i hate knowing the fact that im not working as hard as i could be and as everybody else is.

so im getting a lot of books to read to expand my vocabs even more and a lot of memorizing to do!

this will be the end of this entry.
thank you for reading! 🌹💓