flashing back old memories [ rambling #2 ]

hello everyone!

i have finished watching Whisper Of The Heart (1995) and its really good! i really love it~
i suddenly have an idea on what to update but i'm still going to categorized this entry as a rambling.

anyways,have your 13 year old self ever just look around and how are things going to change in some way? your friends changing (either good or bad),the places around you.your thoughts and your attitude seems to be changing every year as you grow up?

i have just come to realize that when i was around 13-16,i have never come to appreciate the things going around me. i have realized that when i was that age,i never thought of feeling like "what if all the things around me change" or "what would i be doing now if i were 18". i always thought as if i don't have time to think about how my future self in 4 years would behave/be like because i felt like i still have a long way to come.

now that i'm 18,i have major realization to things happening around me. usually,i'm really good at ignoring the things around me and just studied myself off.  i appreciate the things around me a lot more and the friends that i'm with now. i'm also currently trying to stay positive as much as i can and trying to strive for the better,when i struggle a lot that's when i realized how much your support system matter. even if you've got a big or small support system or even you don't know if someone is actually supporting you,i put it in this way - ; everyone else is struggling even if they've got their favorite subjects to study.  maybe there are students out there studying their favorite subjects at their favorite university but they are still missing their homes and wish they could be back aand have a chit chat with their family,or even missing their pets and wanting to pet them.

honestly,i feel like the ramblings section might have just be me struggling about school. i'm just going to keep it that way to keep my mind off of things.

this will be the end of today's entry for ramblings. have a great day to whoever you are in the world.