Back again calling nobody as earthlings because this is another entry where I ramble about anything that I thought about as I'm typing.
So yesterday I just got my third semester of my sixth form studies and all I can say is, it could've been worst. Now one is done, I have two more results coming out this week. Yes, I'm calling that as a brain tormenting week. It's a lot that I can take, it is tormenting me but couldn't hide the fact that I managed to handle 12 papers in one month. ~sike~
Anyways, now that it is February, I want to step up the amount of books I'm reading. However, I'm not going to pick up a book this week because I feel like I'd rather read with a peaceful and not having a war with my mind while reading. I'm afraid that my feels will get in the way while reading. But what better ways for me to cope with my anxiety of waiting my results at 10 in the morning by just laying down on my bed while think of nothing. I kid you not a few days before the announcement of results day was out I cried at night thinking how bad my results could be and thinking about enrolling in universities. I try not to discuss about my preferable uni and course as of right now because I think its best to let your plans be a secret to yourselves than telling the whole world about it (although no one is possibly reading this entry). My anxiety does not hit me at normal times but it hits a lot harder at 3.00am while I struggle myself to sleep. My current coping mechanisms are listening to podcast and watching youtubers like simtubers (plumbella) and commentary and comedy videos like kurtis conner, cody ko and noel miller and also I couldn't forget reading bible verses to help calming my nerves.
I've been watching sims 3 videos lately and it really triggers me to have sims 3. I already have sims 4 university and compared to sims 4, sims 3 feels more flexible and so lively. Maybe I might but i feel like my laptop is on the verge of dying due to the insufficient space
I guess this marks the end of this entry.
I'll be back and hopefully it will be a book review (ง ื▿ ื)ว
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