i cried watching toy story 4, reminiscing wwe but also here's my spotify playlist

hello earthlings!

after what seems like a few days after the previous entry, i just feel like i need to update again eventhough i have nothing to say about. i live pretty much a boring life, nothing to do but always somewhat content with my introverted, hermit crab, vampire lifestyle. i don't go out as often as i would like and i don't go around hanging out with my friends that much. to do it, i have to go through 50 questions. thank goodness i have understanding friends, i'm not always present in someone's mind when a plan to hang out is being decided. not petty, just like being cooped in my home and watch bon appetit videos all day ANYWAYS! 

i have finally watched toy story 4. i knew what the end of the movie would be because of a tumblr post i saw. i expected i wouldn't be crying but darn it! it got the best of me. especially knowing the fact that whenever there's woody, there would always be buzz. after that handshake they had and woody's line "so long, pal" made me weep. i had a lump in my throat trying to not cry when my mom's watching the movie with me, but i couldn't held it in. cried the balls out of my eye. 

besides watching bon appetit videos on youtube, i have also wandered around wrestling videos. wrestling videos, i meant WWE. i grew up watching WWE because of my dad and two of my grandfathers absolutely love WWE.  i have stopped watching WWE after 2013, i had interest in other things. being a teenager, everything that you watch as a child just completely fades away from your mind until there's a sudden memory card in your brain that's being inserted in your brain after a few years, almost forgetting that chunk of memory that you've always had in your brain.

i got a sudden waves of memories flashing after watching a 2 weeks old video of Edge returning to WWE after 9 years since his retirement. listening to his theme, makes me realize that wow, i am so glad i recognized Edge and could connect to the people in the stadium screaming at his sudden appearance. i know it might sound ridiculous to people who don't watch WWE, and getting a shock waves of memories from just listening to a wrestler's theme song is somewhat dumb. but it gets me that now I watch WWE, i couldn't recognize any of them. back when it was around 2008 and 2009, i recognize almost all of them. its sad to see that some kids out there won't realize how legendary wrestlers are, eventhough you know the whole thing is scripted and fake. that's the least thing i'm worried about, at least i still had a fun memory watching WWE when i was a kid. i still remember how The Undertaker's and Kane's theme song made me terrified. i remember when i was around 11, i was at a supermarket with my mom. suddenly Randy Orton's theme song was playing and i shouted at my mom saying "It's Randy Orton's theme song!!!!" and i had my entire day made. thank you for whoever that played the song, i hope you're as dissappointed as i am that WWE seems to be flunking nowadays.

now moving on to my spotify playlist (link available on my sidebar). i've started using spotify playlist only recently, wanting to explore new music with my free spotify, couldn't even afford a one month free spotify premium. i have a total of 8 public playlists in which of their own has their own purpose of existing, depends on what type of mood im feeling at 3AM.

the first playlist is: 

this playlist is pretty self explanatory, i made this playlist after listening to a slowed and reverb version of fifth harmony's that's my girl. as a women, a girl myself who wouldn't love songs that makes you feel powerful. which is why, i made this playlist, to hype up myself and feel good about myself.

second playlist:

this playlist was made after listening to the american rejects's moving along. the first 5 seconds of the song already takes me back to when i was just 7-8 years old. when i used to wake up early on the weekends just watching whatever is on the tv. this playlist includes songs from the early 2000's. songs that i grew up listening, it just hits different at 3AM. although some songs might be upbeat but it gives me waves of emotions, feeling sad and just wishing i could be that 8 year old again.

third playlist:

 again, this playlist is self explanatory. had a really sappy mood one night and listening to billie eilish's everything i wanted on loop. which is why, i created this playlist. this playlist is good for someone who likes to make up daydreams that upsets out own minds. love weeping out of nowhere a night while i have this playlist on blast to my ears.

fourth playlist:

this playlist is one of my favourite out of my 8 playlist. made this one because i was listening to the wallows and dayglow. both bands makes me feel like i want to blast it in a car on late night drives. its bittersweet escapes, because imagine escaping one night, running to somewhere unknown. makes me feel sad just to escape but with good songs? it makes me feel good. listening to this playlist makes me feel like im in a 90's movies settings.

the fifth playlist:

before naming this as "delusional daydreams", i named it as "cliche but i like". reasons why is that i feel like some of these songs can be everyone's favourite. but i want to stick with my own "aesthetic", i had to name it a differently and make people (if there's even someone listening to my playlist) question what the playlist would be about. this playlist includes song that has more recent, upbeat but soothing kind of feeling to it. makes me feel like im just daydreaming.

the sixth playlist:

other than bittersweet escapes, this playlist is my second favourite. i have always loved old r&b songs, nowadays people don't seem to make this kind of gem anymore.

the seventh playlist:

this playlist contains songs from my favourite youtubers like TMG and pewdiepie. had to make a playlist of it eventhough just one day, it might just be a TMG playlist.

the eight playlist.

the irony is that i have a botched second name after christina aguilera, i prefer listening to britney. i have always listened to her other songs other than her biggest hits that leads to what she is today.

my taste of music might be the worst. at least i know what's good for me, i'd be fine. although i had favourites of my playlist, but i love all of them. took time to even look for the picture of each playlist and botched names for each of it to suit the mood.

anyways, i will be ending today's entry. somewhere, if there's ever people reading this blog, have a nice day. bye! see you again in another entry.

what i read in January + reading plans

Hello earthlings!
Now I am back again with another entry to talk about books I've read in January and about my reading plans. To be really honest, I was pretty much lazy about reading books and totally forgot my goals and my new year resolution. I don't really have to start on January but it seemed like I don't really have things to do other than reading. So why not, start early so that I can make sure this hobby will be constant and with be a habit of mine (and of course, i have a lot books i havent read..in my bookshelf..).

In January, I have only read Pet Sematary by Stephen King and The Sun Is Also A Star by Nicola Yoon. It's kind of dissappointing because I've seen people reads like 5 or 10 books in a month. But I feel like it's okay, this just means that I have to pace up my reading by trying the 100 or 50 pages a day challenge. Currently doing that with the book I'm reading now. Anyways, I've done a book review about both books, I really liked Pet Sematary. Took me about 20 days to finish by completing the last 200+ pages in a day and I also did that to TSIAAS. I really can't go to sleep knowing that I'm halfway to the end of the book.

I know I've said somewhere in my entries that I won't be updating about what I will be reading, but I'm going to do it anyways ♡(｡- ω -). Currently, I am reading To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee. Next book is 1984 by George Orwell. Two classics that is really recommended by any book clubs or any book readers out there. I have only read one classic which is The Catcher In The Rye by JD Salinger. I really like the book but not the character. It is depressing and I had to read that in 2 days because it was a classmate's book.

I have also recently went to a local bookstore and found Doctor Sleep by Stephen King and Loveboat,Taipei by Abigail Hing Wen. Might want to buy that someday and read it..(♡°▽°♡)

Okay, this will be end of the entry. See you in the next entry!

Feeling dumb is the strive for 2020

Hello earthlings.
Back again calling nobody as earthlings because this is another entry where I ramble about anything that I thought about as I'm typing.

So yesterday I just got my third semester of my sixth form studies and all I can say is, it could've been worst. Now one is done, I have two more results coming out this week. Yes, I'm calling that as a brain tormenting week. It's a lot that I can take, it is tormenting me but couldn't hide the fact that I managed to handle 12 papers in one month. ~sike~

Anyways, now that it is February, I want to step up the amount of books I'm reading. However, I'm not going to pick up a book this week because I feel like I'd rather read with a peaceful and not having a war with my mind while reading. I'm afraid that my feels will get in the way while reading. But what better ways for me to cope with my anxiety of waiting my results at 10 in the morning by just laying down on my bed while think of nothing. I kid you not a few days before the announcement of results day was out I cried at night thinking how bad my results could be and thinking about enrolling in universities. I try not to discuss about my preferable uni and course as of right now because I think its best to let your plans be a secret to yourselves than telling the whole world about it (although no one is possibly reading this entry). My anxiety does not hit me at normal times but it hits a lot harder at 3.00am while I struggle myself to sleep. My current coping mechanisms are listening to podcast and watching youtubers like simtubers (plumbella) and commentary and comedy videos like kurtis conner, cody ko and noel miller and also I couldn't forget reading bible verses to help calming my nerves.

I've been watching sims 3 videos lately and it really triggers me to have sims 3. I already have sims 4 university and compared to sims 4, sims 3 feels more flexible and so lively. Maybe I might but i feel like my laptop is on the verge of dying due to the insufficient space

I guess this marks the end of this entry.
I'll be back and hopefully it will be a book review (ง ื▿ ื)ว