back again! + recap of my middle school years

hello everyone!
 the last time I updated was back in January so like I promised,im here back again at the end of the year! my wifi is still terminated and I switched my phone with my dad so right now I am typing this with this problematic phone. but nevertheless lets recap of what 2017 had prepared for me.

i can safely say that 2017 was a quarter of bad and the remaining of the quarter is good. I've  learned so many things this year,its like what people say,17 is the age of almost reaching adulthood. like the first stage of becoming adulthood. so I really did  witness "adulthood " things. some problems that i cant even erase or solve. the problem really made me think negatively. there are moments that i wished to go back and wanting to erase of what just happened and just wanted to know where did it go wrong for all this time and where did it started. every night I would cry myself to sleep and wanted to disappear or switch my soul with somebody else. looking at the brighter side,i am happy that i am exposed with such problem so that it'll make me learn something and be more careful to what happens in the future. but the bad thing is that,one problem can make things change,in a bad way. there are moments where it kind of disappear and made me forget about it. but when it comes it hurts badly.

enough with being sad,lets get to the remaining of the quarter. so 2017 really made me cherish my friends (this sounds sad,i really did said enough with being sad...right?). for the first time I stepped my foot in middle school, I should've known that the next five years will be hectic,packed with dramas and people. honestly,why didn't I know that? the first year already had me in trouble and the next year I was very careful in choosing friends. the next few years just go like that,I really did focused on my studies unlike what I did in the first year. the third year I made friends with seniors,and I befriended with a senior that is actually my cousin for all this time. lets just say the third year really made me come out of my shell and actually MADE friends with someone that is not in the same age as mine. but then again for the next 2 years,i've learned that having many friends doesn't help. out of a million,only 2 or 3 that'll come,help,listen for you in your worst (kudos to you,friend! (´｡• ω •｡`)) .

the next thing I cherished is,being in class and the teachers. maybe a week before SPM,it really did hit me that I'm not being able to go back to be in the atmosphere full of jokes,the anxiety of not finishing homeworks with the same classmates for 5 years and being thought by the teachers. and i definitely going to miss Mr.Tan (but we call him papa bear!!) shouting at some problematic students outside. when I started middle school,I honestly feel like I couldn't wait to finish school and get rid of my friends and not seeing the teachers. but now it really did hit me like a truck,I'm going to miss all the people in the school. the wandering dogs and cats. or maybe the canteen.

after 5 years,the time ticks really fast. the chances of meeting friends or teachers is uncertain,you'll never know when you'll get to meet them. some of them might change their appearance,some of them might not know you,some might be leaving the state,some might already have a family. when graduation started,I realized that this is real,I'm ending my 5 years of middle school education. and i really did thought I would be happy leaving. i'd like to say thank you to everyone who stayed and exit in my life,you made me learn a few things,one or two.

i guess this will be the end of my entry! will be updating next about events that my school held and activities that i joined this year. ^^